For Better or Worse

The shadow of my engagement ring on my hand while I read a wedding prep book.  


It's like wedding art or something.  I've got so much cleverosity.  


- Kate

It's Just the Tequila

I have to work really hard to be assertive.  Sometimes I'm not very good at it.  As a kid, I was shy.  I'm still inclined to not speak up, not volunteer, not want to make the choices.  It's taken years of various jobs to bring me to the I-can-fake-it point.  But, by nature, I am an introvert.  
Spending all day everyday talking, being with people, using my voice of doom- it makes me tired.  


Which is why I meditate in my car over my lunch break. Sometimes I drive to a near by parking lot because it clears my head to leave the school.  In my car, I can be assured there will be no one else.  I can finally escape into my own mind and try desperately to reach equilibrium before going back to work.


I think I need a job where I can silently lose myself in intent focus.  


I'm thinking about making a blog (what are you talking about-this is a blog...).  Like a pinteresty blog.  Even if only to write about things I like.  Besides, I'm really good at doing my own hair.  And I love Bare Escentuals and if you know me at all, you know I love anything skin care related.  Plus, I'm wedding planning.  It's what people like me are calling out for!


I'm kind of obsessed with this blog: thesmallthingsblog.com 
Visit it.  You'll see why.    


On another note, I'm kinda worried I have pink eye.  (Gross.)  My right eye is red and itchy.  But it's not so much my eye as it is the skin around it.  The skin around it is red and itchy too.  Allergies?  I'm not running a fever.... 


The other day I uploaded some recovered files to my old PC from when it crashed in college.  I found these two pictures that I can remember taking from when my acne was at it's worst (freshman year of college-oy that year).  I'm still humiliated by them.  I want to get to a point where I can post them and say, "here it is, this is what it was, and this is what I did and look how great it is now."  But I can't.  It's bad.  I haven't even shown Zach yet.  


I'm working on it.


Besides, I haven't decided how really transparent I want to be.
I need to go watch Friends before I go to sleep.  
-Kate